Just Keep Writing

Hello!

So, writing has been insanely slow lately. It's like I'm trying to force words where there aren't any. It's okay though. I read a quote (and if I wasn't so lazy, I'd get you the source), that basically said, a page that you've written is better than a blank page. You can't edit a blank page.

AMEN! I am writing and trying and squeezing out sentences. In the end, it doesn't matter if a single word stays because it's more words than I had yesterday, or last month.

It's September.

I began writing this novel that I'm not completely REwriting last November. I've been at this for almost a year.

And I still don't have a finished project.

I can't get discouraged. I can't. I just have to keep going.

(See Morgan. See Morgan be her own motivational speaker. Go Morgan go!)

Hmmm.

So. The more I research, the more I realize my book sucks.

Okay, that's not true, but the rewrites just feel so so endless. I want it to be good, and I'm not interested in querying too soon, but good heavens.

Next step: I need to print it out, and highlight the conflict in every single scene. Apparently, if there isn't conflict then it's bad. BAD.

I thought I knew how to write.

Looks like, maybe not so much.

It's a good thing I LIKE writing.

Now, if only my children LIKED me writing.

When You Work From Home...

Am I fraud if I claim to be working from home? 

Because let me say that writing a book is WORK. I love it, it's fun and all, but that doesn't mean that it's not work. 

Working means that I'm forgoing other things, like doing the dishes. 

And putting clean laundry away. 

It becomes a game of give and take every single day. When I can hammer out some words? I tend to lean toward writing during our daily sanctioned "Netflix" time, but the problem there is that I'm tempted to let them go passed the strict "2 episode" rule when I hit a good groove. More Power Rangers from 1994? SURE WHY NOT? 

See the problem here? 

Let's not forget that we homeschool. This means that at least 3 hours a day is devoted to educating. That isn't a lot, compared to a full-time traditional school schedule, but I only have two students. We get lots done. 

Oh, and remember that 3 year old, oh right and the 2 year old? They are awfully grumpy if I ignore them. 

The baby doesn't do much napping. 

Then, let's remember that I don't want my children to suffer while I "work", so when they bring me a book and beg me to read, it's not like I can say no. 

3 meals a day? Try 13. They are ALWAYS HUNGRY. 

Which means someone is always in need of a clean diaper. 

The house? In shambles most of the time. I *could* keep it neat and tidy 24/7 but THAT would be my full-time job. 

I'm just squeezing in moments to "work from home" where I can. 

I may never finish this book. 

Dreaming

I haven't had much time to write this week. It's been a busy, long week. But I find in the rare quiet moments my brain drifts into that spot where the characters are real, and the stories flow. And I'm never near a computer or a post-it.

I need a pen and paper or a recording device or something. I don't know, I just know that if my book was linked directly to my brain the whole thing would be done already.

Why hasn't anyone invented stream of consciouness computing? This is something I would pay money for.

I just know that so much of my life is NOT writing. But much of my thinking is.

That *should* count for something.

Shoot.